“If anyone thinks they are something when they are nothing, they deceive themselves.”
…I never walk into a room and assume that anyone recognizes me unless it’s a radio event or I’m the guest speaker. It was a weird adjustment for me to realize that other people see me differently than I see myself. Not too long after I started doing a weekend show, I ran into a bartender I had worked with in a casino. She looked at me like I was from another planet and I had worked across the bar from her for EIGHT YEARS! “Hey, Kris, it’s ME!” In the words of Joe Walsh, “Everybody’s so different, I haven’t changed…”
People who’ve known me for decades from the various jobs I’ve had know that I’m the same mouthy broad I’ve always been. Nothing has changed, except the people I come into contact with at work. But I’m under no illusion. I am just a working girl, and the fact that I might sit next to the Governor or some other high ranking official or famous person at lunch does not mean they’re my “close friends” or that we travel in the same social circles. Most of them would never talk to me if I weren’t on the radio.
‘Don’t you know who I am?’ is about the most obnoxious thing you can say. First of all, if they don’t know “who you are”, you’re not that famous, and if they do, ‘who you are’ in human terms means nothing to God. For me, who I am in Christ is all that matters. God is in charge of my future, and no one else. Not a Program Director, not a treacherous co-host, columnist or anyone listening who demands that I be taken off the air. I’ve dealt with all of that and more, and I’m still standing because God clearly wants me to do this, at least for now.
I’ll do radio as long as HE wants me to, and then someday I plan to disappear into blissful obscurity. I honestly don’t understand people who cannot walk away from the spotlight. I look forward to it. I’ll buy an RV and take off with my hubby, dogs and books walking my dogs at sunrise in my pajamas like other RV’ers and no one will recognize me. That would be just about perfect…